Wedding Planning***

Alright so yes I am going to be having a wedding*** I never thought it would be as fun and make me feel so good. I feel like with me planning this that i am so important*** I ask Jason what is my budget on my dress and he told me that its one time i get to have this so there is no limit on anything*** he is such a sweet heart*** I cant wait to go look at dresses i have not yet at all looked at wedding dresses and im super excited***

Well having a wedding is going to be a blast along with planning it. The only thing if i could change anything would be to have way more brides maids because if i could have all the people i want to be in it in it then WOW lots and lots of females lol*** So that part is kind of sad. I hope they all go though because that would make me happy. SOOOOOOOOOO I also cant wait to pick out the perfect place i want to have our wedding. Our wedding is going to be ruffly 150 ppl there so i want to make sure i have enough room for everyone*** Its going to be a big wedding... I feel almost like those sweet 16 girls off tv because i was talking about what i want and my friend was like geeze hahah you want all this HAHA and im like yes i know what i want haha*** So i also cant wait to dance to our slow song and that would be Allison Krauss When you say nothing at all*** We both really like that song*** Soooooo yes i cant wait to go dress shopping***

Visiting my Hubby in South Carolina, and Alabama

OMG I went to visit Jason and it started with me being in MN foor my AT training in the field*** I was not able to leave in time to be able to ride along with my family in laws somy hubby bought me a plane ticket... I road down two planes by myself and that is way more nerve recking then i ever
expected it to be but hey i got to where i needed to be*** So I get there an Jason said that he was going to wait for me on base because he wasnt aloud to leave off base but when i walked out with Teddie my motherinlaw from the airport i walked up to the vehicle with my bags and Jason comes out of nowhere in his uniform looking SOOOOO sexy*** OMG i was soooooo happy i jumped on him and hugged him and kissed him*** we road together to the hotel we went to dinner... the next day i went too his graduation with the family and iit was awsome to see my baby out there on the field*** Im so happy for my baby*** Soooo we leave there and we set out for North Carolina tomeet more of jasons family*** They are WONDERFUL i loved meeting them so much they were soooooo nice*** I love the way they talk. They have that country accent. Well after we left there we set out for BAMA*** Well we got to alabama and we all stop at the space museum*** It was AWSOME*** Yyou see the picture of me and my baby on what i like to call the red carpet and im working my victoria secret pants OH YEA!!! and an awsome ARMY PT shirt hahah yup noone can do it like me HAHAH*** We saw Transformers 2 BABY on IMAX it was HUGE*** yup it was amazing*** Im so glad i waited to see it with my family*** Sooo then we take Jason to where his AIT training is and then we had to leave him*** And off to home we go***

Horses dont deserve it***

Hey everyone so Sunday I had work. My mission was to take the Para shoot team to the Arlington race park. I was thinking like racing cars and i was pretty excited. The team is awsome. The team is called the Black Daggers from North Carolina. Two of them are green berets and the others were red berets. They are really cool*** Their names are Dave, Tony, Dewey, and Jason. They are so awsome lol hahah they were really funny talking about my driving lol*** but i got to the race and it was a horse race. I went in and when the 2nd race was over the horses were so restles when they were done. I dontknow anything about racing them it was the first time i had ever been to a place like that. It doesnt seem like they have to much love really. I could def be wrong but it didnt seem like it and it was sad*** I feel bad for them*** The team did their jump out of the plane and I had to hold a red and black flag in the air as soon as they got out of the plane. It was so much watching them come to the ground... GREAT FACT: When your on the landing field and it looks like a para shooter is coming right at you even a foot away dont move at all because they can manuiver around you. If you move3 your making it that much more harder. The winner of the 3rd race i had to along with a couple of other soldiers had to present a USO award to the winner. Lots of pictures*** Then we got free food. I didnt eat much which is good*** But then i drove them home and i got home and got 2 letters from Jason*** Well thats my weekend yall***

MY JOB IS AMAZING***

me and catherine

Well not everyone knows what i do in the military and i dont think i have mentioned it... Well I am a military Police officer, but i am currently working with recruiting and retention. The military is full of doing things you never would have done in your life or something you could of done but never took a second to think about doing it*** Well that brings me to my past weekend full of AMAZING times. Before i tell you guys what i did im going to tell you that the only thing that could of made it better was if Jason were there***
Alright so Saturday I had to work for my 3rd weekend in a row. my orders were to go to the toyota park in Chicago to set up a stand for the Pepsi B bash B96. I was excited but i had no idea what to expect. Well the day started out gloomy and rainy and it was outdoors. Well it was the pre bash that we were working. I met SGT Catherine and we immediatly bonded lol she is crazy and she is a really good dancer. Well there was a huge crowed and music playing well we called out selves working and we went to the middle of the crowd and started dancing and everyone was watching us and we started getting other ppl around us hype to dance*** OMG if we were in civilian clothes we would of set it off*** But that wouldnt have been handy later in the night*** hint hint...

Ok so the pre bash ended at 5 and the concert started. I thought we were all leavving and out of no where they had free tickets for me and catherine and we were sooooo happy. We like ran in there lol*** So many people where there it was insane. We had GREAT CLOSE seats. SERIOUSLY*** But.... hahah good thing was we didnt even need them. We sat there for like 39 minutes dancing on the chairs to DAY AND NIGHT lol yall know that song. Well the singer sang that. He was great*** THEN LMFAO yea not to many of my friends have heard of that group. Well while they were on stage a latie comes to me and my Catherine and asked us to go with her. We walked into the VIP area and she gave us VIP passes and we were smiling soooooo BIG*** Then we sat back stage and we were like ten feet not even from the stage. OMG We watched Kelly Clarkson booty dance and we gave her thumbs up and she gave them back to us it was awsome haha*** That was back stage of course lol.


Then Styles and Roman came up to us and started telling us about then announcing us by name and having us come out there. We got nervous and we were like holy smokes lol They are great though they were soooo funny. They taight me how to put my hands n my knees and shake my butt hahaha... Then catherine went to do push ups and one of the guys sat on her back and she came up and he fell backwards I was cracking up hahah*** Then they went to go do something and we were standing back stage and LMFAO came back stage cause they finished there performance and they came up to us and gave us hugs and they were like how are you guys mmmmm and i was like oh no jason would not like that. But then FLO RIDA went on and we were dancing back stage like crazy*** ACON and his family and friends pulled up and they just stood there watching us dance we were having to much fun to stop ahah or care what anyone thought. Then catherine went on a smoke break and ACONs friends walked up to me while Kelly was performing and told me that his friends over there thought i was cute i was like uh thank you (kind of like thanks bye) then he said that he was going to give me their address for ACONs after party, he said he would give it to me after ACON got off stage and im like alright. Knowing i dont want the address because im not like that and he walked up to me like im every other hussy they meet. NO WAY*** Well catherine came back and she was like i have to GO lets go thats her husband hahah and i was like she can get the address but im not gonna go. THEN Black eyed pease got there OMG they are as AMAZING as in their videos*** AMAZING*** I took pictures with their family*** They were REALLY NICE*** We got free drinks and free food and it was amazing***


Then Styles and Roman came to us and said when they call our names that we should go out their serious and they will say just because we can woop their a** doesnt mean we cant have fun and then when he said that music started playing and we were the only 4 on stage and the big prompt was on me and catherine and we just started dancing hahha it was amazing everyone was cheering so loud and yelling. It was an amazing rush being out on the same stage dancing as Fergie and black eyed peas and kelly clarkson and ACON and LMFAO and so many others performed on that night. It was amazing i love it so much*** We got off stage and ACONs people were like starring at us soooo hard or it might of been FLO RIDAs people. dont remember but everyone was talking to us like we were famous hhahaha... ppl in the crowd were like are you guys perfessional dancers or are you guys really in the army haha im like we dont wear this uniform for show lol... So wearing our uniforms set us apart. We didnt look or act like groopys. like all those other CRAZY females*** WOW but omg it was amazing. When it was over we were walking out and everyone kept passsing us and saying those are the girls that were dancing on stage lol*** It was awsome*** Seriously you guys I lvoe my job so much because that whole night i was working***

Some of my great memories***

so jason tries to help me with my diets... but it doesnt look like he is that good now does it??? hahah

Alright this was our first vacation camping for like 3 nights at Wisconsin Dells. It was amazing. Money was not an issue to him he did whatever i wanted to do***

This wonderful day was when Hubby took us paint-balling OMG SO FUN*** he is good. be on his team or your in trouble*** NOT JOKING

Ok so this is our wedding day*** He was driving us to our wedding lol AWWW best truck ride we have ever had*** Very thoughtful and touching***

Alright so this is a night me and Jason were playing outside*** And i didnt see a shooting star... but thats ok because i didnt need one i had everything i wanted***

Alright my readers should already know this place... yes its me and Jasons favorite place. The pier. He's always hiding from me lol***

HAHAHA calm down i had his shirt under my shirt haha

This was my first time at Midevil times. Jason took me and it was so much fun you guys have no idea*** I loved it haha

Jason was getting ready for our wedding*** He is so cute lol***

Oh yea this is how i get ready for our wedding. PICTURES hahah

Jason was playing his guitar and i love to watch him play it. I call it my guitar now lol***

Inside joke lol*** But i sent this to Jason off my cell phone to his*** lol I really wanted to know hahha

another inside joke lol hahah so we have a lot of those but he put this on my phone screen and i thought it came with the phone lol. But he said he made it and i didnt believe him for the longest time. He said i did i did see the pink is me and the blue was him lol and then i looked closer and totally believed him. HAHA we love looking up at the stars*** Looking for shooting stars is amazing at the pier and on the beach*** We love it***

Jasons second call*** One amazing day***

Soooo today was a great day... Before jason told me that he named his M-16 after me*** That is so sweet of him*** lol but in his letter he told me that he went to the range and when he returned he got to STRIP AND CLEAN ERRIKA hahah lol he is so silly. At first i was confused but then i got it lol*** Of course hahah... Then he told me that he had a lot of down time and it only gives him time to think about my deployment... Obviously at this moment he has not recieved my letter saying that my name is off the deployment list*** Which he will be so happy to see my letter saying that i dont really have to go*** Im just so excited everytime i get to read a letter from my baby*** you guys dont understand***


But let me get this off my chest. ok so I have not been doing the best on money wise but iv been making it. Its been kind of hard because im helping out and my bills are changing so its hard. I make so much off of my job and Jason makes so much. What i dont want to do is have to for some reason go on without Jason in my life and not be able to take care of myself. So i dont use any money from him i just make it on my own no matter how hard it gets. Well this is where the good news comes. Ok so my sister got her money and she gave me 500 dollars today. She doesnt understand how much i needed that. I put money in my account because my account was actually negative and that i didnt know which is bad i know. Well my account is good and i put the rest in me and Jasons piggy bank which was like more then 200 dollars and thats awsome*** He is going to be so proud of me. I wonder what we are going to do with all that money. Well idk but i cant wait to find out. maybe it will be for our kids lol*** HAHA its to soon i think so maybe not*** THEN

OMG are you guys ready for this... Then i was working right and then I felt my phone vibrate and i looked at my phone and you will never guess who it was JASON*** OMG im so happy i got to talk to him for 5 minutes because thats all the time he got*** I feel bad he couldnt talk to anymore of his family but he really wanted to talk to me about me not deploying and he was so happy. But he is sick and his voice sounded so deep and different because he is sick. Thats what the booty peanut butter shot is for that FT. JACKSON does not give for some reason. But i feel bad but his PT score (excersise) is amazing*** He is sooooo great*** Even though he is sick and hurting*** WOW im the luckiest girl in the world*** I dont even know how God blessed me this much***

Deployment turn around***

The great news that i finally have time to get on the computer and sit down and write this. Well i dont have that much time im about to go for a run*** But... After the short time i was chosen to join the 233rd in their deployment over seas, i was walking into work when SGT Daniels said that i was not on the deployment list, I was like what are you talking about? dont play with me, He said that the company had a meeting and they talked about certain ppl being in the unit. Well I was one of the nppl they talked about. So i am not deploying anymore. Im not sure if i blogged about it but i talked to jason once when he called for his first call while at basic and i told him how i was supposed to be deploying. He was soooooo bummed you guys have no idea. Iv never heard him sound the way that he did. I wish i could have been able to call him when i got the good news about me not deploying but i obviously couldnt. Soo the next best thing i wrote a letter and told him all about it. I know he is going to be soooo happy. I just wish i could hear his happyness. eitherway im glad he is finding out about this*** well gotta go run*** peace out***

While Im waiting***

So yesturday jason called me when i was just driving and i looked at my phone and saw his picture and i freaked out. I was so happy its insane*** I was screaming and i cant even explain how i felt on the inside. I was so happy. I told him how much i missed him and his voice sounded so cute and deep. I know i could hear in his voice that he missed me so much and that he was happy to hear how much i missed him***Well me and Jasons fav song is While im waiting. Everytime i write him while im at home or thinking about him i listen to the song While Im waiting by: John Waller. Its such a beautiful song. But anywho so i talked to him mostly about my deployment coming up and he was so upset by it. He said there is noway im going. He said he will do everything within his power to make sure i sont get deployed. I totally understand he misses so much and he doesnt want me to go anywhere especially not there. I def dont want to go but at this point... my name was called and as of now im going. So im trying to look at the very slim up sides there is to deploying. Besides the fact that i may not come back. I could go up in rank and get farther in my career. I could possibly become a hero while im there. God has me going for a reason. I dont know what it is exactly at this moment but i know that i will find out***
So I have been running outside at my neigborhood and one lap aroundd my big block is .7 miles and today i ran around it 4 times and a little extra to the park while my nephew road his bike i ran behind. And the day before i ran a lot but i dont remember how much that is now. Then i went and hung out with brat at the rex plex where that really cool pool is. i ran a mile there too. She showed me a bunch of stuff that her trainer taught her. Some crazy stuff. I dont really have the money to try and join a fitness club at the moment and not that i really need one im sure i can do without because i got cardio and everything else is falling into place.

So yea today went great. my body is killing me especially my back. I have a really bad back*** its crazy but yea im about to write Jason good night to all of yall. By the way if there is misspelled words dont forget follwers and non, I broke my computer screen so im working with what i got lol***
peace

Getting Deployed... Now I know

How are you supposed to feel when you decide to raise your right hand and take the chance of deploying for your country. Especially when you witness everyday selfish ppl that try hurting ppl here. Well I found out today after this past weekend of SRP, which is getting ready for the pre deployment physical. I am deploying with a unit other then my own, non the less it is our sister unit to our own. Well a lot of ppl kind of new it might happen but didnt really want to believe we might be one of the people. Well we got to our unit after the long weekend and we were in formation. When all of a sudden 1st SGT tells us that she was going to start calling off names and those ppl should post and stand behind her. She seemed like she was almost done calling names when all of a sudden i hear PFC Sanders. I said MOVING 1ST SGT and i ran into the formation behind 1st sgt and i was standing there looking at the non deploying ppl and it was really weird to be in that position. The ppl that were getting deployed out of my unit looked so sad. We dont have all the answers and things are constantley changing about our deployment. I dont really know exactly who to tell about it because no one of my friends really have been through this but I know they are always there to help me when i need it, even if i dont. I cant help but think about how Jason is going to take this. He really didnt want me to go in the first place. He will praobably be crushed. We talked about it before he left so it wont be the biggest surprise him. But if he is going to be content and know everything will be ok. i will feel a little more content with going. He is away as everyone following my blog knows, and i can not just call him and have a talk about everything. Instead i have to write a letter and i dont want him to feel bad. I want him to know how i feel and hear it in my voice. But yea idk whats in line for me with my deployment. I start training for it soon and i hope you all pray for me***

Blast from the Past*** And cant wait for my future

OMG!!! Ok so today i have not gotten a letter from jason. But i know he probably didnt have time to mail it off or even write it lol*** I know how that goes, but thats ok because I am writting him everyday no matter what. Because even though he cant write sometimes i know he can always read*** Soooo I wrote him today and one of the pages was a bunch of pictures i tried to draw of some really meaningful moments in our life... lol like when he asked me out at the Drive in movie and i kind of didnt agree.... then he asked me out at the bowling alley and I said YES*** also another moment is when we first moved in together and another is when we first danced together at the Pier and im not talking any dancing. He helped me up to the high part of the pier and we did like ballroom type dancing he spun me around and did the whole roll me into him and dip me. It was beautiful because ppl started watching us. lol Ill never forget that. Jason wrote his and my name on the actual pier. I was not there but he took a picture of it, and as bad as that is i really still like it and ill have the picture forever.

So today I went to work in chicago and me and my battle were putting together these huge 8ft shelves like the one in the picture below only thing is there were no backs to the ones that we rebuilt. So they didnt seem sturdy but 3 hrs after we got done and started on the other half of the room and got almost done with that side... when i went to grad the last pole and i held on the the shelves we had finished before and it started to slant and it is sooo heavy i knew i couldnt hold it all up because it was 7 rows of what you see in the picture 8ft tall. Yea and we were on a cement floor and it was so loud. I was like oh no and my battle buddy turned around and yelled SANDERS!!! and tried to run to it and i covered my face and it knocked me down. It was ontop of me and my battle came and had to pull me from under it*** Everyone ran in there yelling are you guys ok. Seriously i got a couple cuts and bruises but im fine. Just mentally seeing something that huge coming at you is crazy*** The first thing that came to my mind was how much i miss my hubby*** no joke*** LATER guys***